Time, before he certainly understood, , when the leaf mountain Zi returns to Tokyo why will seem to be so according to follow, so gentle and soft, so love dearly and don't give up again, originally, that is the farewell that she determines most……
Although say, in this in this world, he is to understand the person of the mountain Zi of leaf most in of a , have been knowing as well, she is wont to act wilfully, and abnormality definitely cut off, momentary, he always still can not believe, she really abandon himself/herself like this, far walk other place ……
Is that did he force too maliciously to her?Have?He really doesn't feel.He sometimes even in will feel surprised Cha, for leaf mountain Zi, he why will have that kind of is like endless endless, take it not Jie of patience ……still keep saying, at the leaf mountain Zi but speech, is he finally an insignificant stranger person?The behind is this viewpoint, at this time as if the snake generally and strongly gobble up his heart.
Led very in a short while, there is a pure end silently accepting good that letter clearly, picked up own jacket, come out office, arrived a superior to ask for leave there, then, feel last a silk rush through into an airport by luck and multiply by ascend leave for the service of Nagoya.
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However, such as he anticipate, this time, the leaf mountain Zi walks it may be said is in a determined manner, therefore, regardless is the apartment that once rented at her, still just her work lead of the hospital, all no one knows where she went.
Afterwards, he is from the husband and wife of well Jian how can anyone know, they also received the farewell letter of the mountain Zi of leaf.Received farewell letter certainly of, also still have the leaf the mother of the mountain Zi to herd wild Hui son ……in fine, she like a drop of morning expose generally, so thoroughly from his visual field in evaporate.
At 25 years old the deep autumn that year and in winter, left Nagoya in the leaf mountain Zi don't know a Zong of the day in, there is pure end becoming very crary clearly, he is notter intentional than a work, search her everywhere.However, is national in one in, there is no clues, want to find out a person who leaves intentionally, just like hence fish a needle from the sea ……
BE muddle-mindedly leading for a few months behind, a certain the flower blossom in warm spring in March, the second year at the mid-night, hope to gradually grow up of, the kid of childish amiability, delitescence at have the end pure clear body inside of as the father's responsibility suddenly recovery ……
He slowly stretches out a hand and slightly dauted to sleep soundly a medium son for a while cheeks with very small and beautiful Jiao, a kind of have long time no see of touched suddenly fill the air heart of.He takes back a hand and wiped out oneself face up have already had some to dry by air of tears, wish, now of he, also not is very poor ……besides, anyway, life always still want to keep on continuing.
This time, he finally understood, this is the life, therefore, is even if excellent such as him, equally can not make all beautiful dreams true as well ……is regardless a mountain Zi of leaf probably, still the they all once expected of, owned together of kid, all just some time light of a part of the dream, at present, these dream, all Be abdicated to reality, and he , whiled reaching agreement with destiny and life, also gotted growth.―― Which afraid is this world most the growth of the most painful difficulties.
Now, he finally learned pardon, the academic association forgives leaf mountain Zi of cruel leave;Also learned comprehension, academic association comprehend her to take French leave ……certainly, here among them, the theest most important of, still he finally learned a body from he up look for the answer of problem ……
But this, probably is that he experiences in the growth of this like cicada Tui sort pain and sufferings in the most worthy acquire.
In the blackness, there was a pure end to turn round to leave infant's room clearly, at lightly and falsely the Yan came of a moment, he thinks, as long as she feels to do like this, can acquire her heart hospice good ……anyway, he still keeps believing, have to also believe, as long as they are still on the hoof, well on the hoof, always have the day of reunion.
This near believe in the adherence of sort, is 26-year-old he, the only compromise that isn't willing to do to the life.
Always chapter 42 rain night
At this there is the evening of rain coldly
Darkly grow turning of street Cape at this
Total someone right against the face supports a
The old umbrella in black/in a hurry once walked
The rain water washes his figure be suffused with white
Feel like years/inclined knit
One page another page ash receives of poem
Always feel you still the where is quiet quiet wait for me
At each is muddy to grow street of turn Cape
I have to put gradually slow step
Review/to the deep place of fine drizzle
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After getting off work, the leaf mountain Zi leaves that clinic, the beginning slowly rents toward oneself of the apartment walk.This a day that is the end of November evening, ash in the sky receives of, seem to be since Yin and cold.
Arrived at this time, her coming to Zha Huang had already had more than a months.That time at the end of September, after leaving Nagoya, she arrived green Sen first, however, is where foolish half several months, the decision come to Zha Huang.Have already been getting more pregnant, therefore, she didn't also want to seek a work at those big hospitals, afterwards,beats by dre studio hd, chance and opportunity strangely fits, entered not far this private clinic inside part-time job for leaving the apartment that oneself rents.
This time, her kid in the belly already have more than five months big, although because wear in winter swollen relation, side the person also can hardly see out, however, herself has already profoundly realized because body day very aggravating of the first but bring of activity inconvenience ……however, in this time, she can not also stop a work, after all, although money that sells a Zu house at that time with before work to accumulate the salary that the Zan gets up to have some, after of a period of time, think the necessity is used much money, therefore, she has to bite a tooth to continue to work, really arriving really can not insist.
Have "the northlands are all" the Zha Huang of the good reputation compared with Kyoto or Nagoya of can say in winter is come specially early.This time, it is already a snow and icebound.Hope an expanse of white snow mountain in the distance, the leaf mountain Zi suddenly remembered to return to Tokyo in September again that time, there is end coming to the business of trip in Hokkaido for winter that was pure to once make reference to clearly ……she at this time not from think, she of so will decide to Zha Huang, will can't be because of this reason?
Probably ……
She certainly also knows, her suddenly leave, willing make care her those people can not accept, particularly is have a pure clear end ……however, she since have already done to decide, also can put into action, in addition, have no choice, furthermore, she is to really believe, time is getting longer, have pure end clear meeting in the time oblivion because of her leave without a word bring of pang.As for he will can't therefore hate her, she has already been getting more inattentive, want ～only he lead well good ……
As for herself, although she very clear, here behind, she has already been not likely to be like to love to have a pure end similar love moreover a men clearly, the words say back, at least, now of she, the heart is free, and very quiet and peaceful, furthermore, the love after all isn't living all, therefore, the life doesn't necessarily can not continue, can't have new result as well, even happy, much less, she still has a kid ……
She thinks that when waiting next year spring a kid bear to come she should can't feel solitary.
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On Saturday morning, the leaf mountain Zi as usual checks body at a hospital of neighborhood.She entered the front door of that hospital and suddenly felt a bit uncomfortable while walking on Lin Yin Dao, hence stopped at wayside.Although already****More than five months, somehow or other, she sometimes still responds fierce.
Also want till this time, for herd wild Hui son always why can tolerate her impoliteness and self-will, she just had all new understanding ……after all, a women, experience so many pain, just bear own kid, and then how may not love?Which afraid in this not- rational love, contain considerable very toxicity.
At this time, if at the right moment there was individual to walk to come over and see her from the behind, , after hesitating a short moment, nearby stopped down at her:"Excuse me, , you have what ……want what I help?"
Hear orotund,
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